something are beyond my control, yet when sometimes i've decided to give things up and place it into God's hands, i just cant seem to do it. why? i often ask myself. the whole thing comes to a conclusion that i'm not willing to give up things for greater things. i pretty much prefer to stay in my comfort zone and stick with the old.

sometimes, i thought i did give up on this particular thing and give it all to God. i'm sorry. this issue, for once and for all, i want to place it into your hands and never to take it back again; ever - everything. i hate it when it's me being indecisive and then it ended up with me myself being unhappy and all. it's as though i'm running away from my issues, but instead of running far far away, i was actually running in circles. coming back to the issue every now and then.

it was until then, when i assumed that i'm over and done with everything, i was wrong. wrong wrong wrong. so well. this time, i'm gna try real hard to place this into His hands and really trade it for something better. i'm going to have this courage. i will.

only when i stop to think
about you, i know
only when you stop to think
about me, do you know

i'm down for achiever's programme because i scored a L1R5 of above 20 for my CA ? which means, either on monday or thursday in every week, i have to study for 2 hours after school in the library. i got into this programme where i have to study for extra hours, looking at the bright side of life, it actually makes me study rather than going home and doing nothing. anyway, it's just once per week.

i find it a waste of time today. cause i wasnt even listening in class ! biology practical, i did the practical, but i didnt take anything down on the worksheet given. cause being the typical me, i want to copy down the CORRECT answer. so rah rah. then followed up with math class, was teaching on LOCI. and well, didnt do my homework but completed during lessons, slept when mr tong was explaining. after that was physics where we did two worksheets cause mrs yeo wasnt around. assembly then social studies extra lessons.

is there anyone out there whose source-based is extreme good ? can you like give me some tutoring, cause the way i handle source-based questions is like an immediate fail.

came home, and was drench from head to toe. it was raining so heavily, but it's not raining now. so sick. the wind was extremely huge that i can actually feel that i'm almost being lifted up. okay, this shows that i'm wayyyyyy too skinny *i knew this long ago* . so, i'm determined to gain 5 kg by the end of this year. and my weight to be 50kg ! =)



a picture taken by cindy PHUA while i'm asleep on tuesday ! HAH.

my cough isn't any better still. ):

life's a bitch.

my day started out like some freaking irritating sh*t. i totally hate today. in addition, after reading a friend's* entry, my hatred for teachers is increasing. this teacher, LOVES TO BE RIGHT. whatever she's saying is correct, even when it's wrong. she's a ridiculous teacher who LOVES to throw her weight around. seriously, she's just a snobbish teacher. this totally proves that she's a proud teacher who always thinks that she's oh-so clever ? so what if she's better in english, and so what if she takes the best class ? this doesnt mean she HAVE to be proud yes ? but still, there are still some teachers who i feel like loving them forever and ever.

had class after that, no chinese cause mr tan wasnt in school - sad. alright, then went home after school, met lalu at the bus-stop. being bitches - OH SO SORRY. bah. i dont give a sh*t now. RAH. i'm so totally irritated. lalu will know why. )=[

went home to change and met up with faith and michelle for street evangelise at junction8. but failed, cause was rather late already. went to northpoint, met up with clarence for dinner and talked about some more or less important stuffs, then went for tutoring.

okay, no one wants to know more about me anyway, so i shall not say any more. BYE.


to my dearest friend*,
you know who you are, so yes, dont worry yes ? when you're down and all, just remember, there's a tall friend here always ready to listen and bitch with you any time. (: sheryl loves you*

alright, i'm feeling rather sick now. BOO !! was in school and was coughing non-stop, it's so sick when you're sick ! make sense ? totally. was having his headache which's coming&going every now and then, why cant it just go and make life easier for me. )=[

went lunching with lalu, xueting and christine at the coffeeshop near school. and HAHA ! saw so many CAB, and one of which xueting knows ! gosh. hah. acting retarded as usual after that. took the bus back home with the rest and here i am !

tonnes of homework for me to finish up. history essay, biology mindmap, english journal & math textbook. bah, so many work, yet so little time, someone who's kind enough to help me with some of it ? yuck. wasnt able to stop myself from sleeping in math and social studies class today. it's so terrible being so tired, yet not being able to sleep. frustrating yes ?

i'll sleep for an hour,

brief time-table for today :


i promise that i'll study for sure. oh yes, during biology class, we were discussing about something to do with our genes and all those chromosomes, and we were to take notice of our tongue. was sitting with yeohyuan&kargek, and we concluded that, i have a pretty short and small tongue. but not to the extend that i stutter. omg. short tongue, i MUST be a lousy kisser ! HAHAHAHA ! -out of the point. oh well. SLEEPING-TIME !!!

RAHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!! )=]

okay, firstly, i hereby state that i'm extremely HUNGRY. ): but ya, my mom's cooking, what's there to complain.

seriously, i'm still a little messed up with my decision of whether to get into a juniorcollege or a polytechnic. it's rather confusing as there are their pros and cons in any decision i'm making. should i list out a little? hmm, well i should !

if i were to get into a juniorcollege, it'll be fun for sure* depending on which JC i were to get into. but still, it'll be extremely competitive, and if i were to be extremely slack, and i fail ONE subject, i'll RETAIN. it's so risky ?? ah ! i dont know.. getting into a juniorcollege is pretty much more academic, if i want to be in the studious type of person. what i see from my cousin who's in JC2 this year, it's like she's doing her tonnes of homework up till the wee hours. like AH, i cant lose my sleep right ?

okay, what about polytechnic. okay, i'll be more or else considered an ADULT because i'm not wearing the school uniform already, which is quite sad. as students in uniform always get discounts on FOOD ! like RAH. being in the polytechnic, life would be hard i guess as it's more or less independent. definately projects which can flood me. being in a particular course is quite a good thing to consider as it'll be focusing only on that, and not on other stuffs.

so how ? jump off the building and die ? i seriously want to just do well for my O levels and take a step at a time, but people says that we should think FAR, think AHEAD. so now i think ahead, then i cant come to a conclusion. dieeeeee.

actually, i've been fatasizing about this. prelims, scored well, and went to SAJC for my first 3 months. then, i've got my O levels results, i scored a SINGLE DIGIT (which cannot happen in 1000 million years to come), but still, i decided to be the idiotic person who goes into a polytechnic, and not allow those people who scored lower to get in the course. -evil laughs- okay, then life continues, i study hard and do well for my final year, and be in the top 10% of my course. still, i decided to make a daring decision by enrolling into a foreign university, like Australia. life goes on, and i've made new friends. got my 1st degree, then go out working for maybe half a year or so, and continue with my masters degree. find a great guy and get married, then LADIDUMS, have a family and stay there forever. but i might come back to singapore to work after obtaining my masters. probably start my family here ?

HAHA ! okay, it's SO in LALA LAND right ? but it's just FATASIZING what !! haha. yups.

----TODAY----

school. gna get back my emaths test tomorrow. i have much confidence that i might do well, (: i dont know why, cause i thought it was rather easy. bought my lunch from mac and cabbed down to CCAB with doreen. our xishan girls are having their match today. they improved, but still, they lost. then, we shouldnt be discourage ! after that, while we're waiting for the bus to come, we went to watch two schools playing RUGBY. and oh my GOD. i was making loads of noise as i see one jumping on another and pinning them onto the ground. it's like .. SO VIOLENT CAN! scary.

okay, i'll end off with this, CCAB - so in love with this place. YES DOREEN ?? haha.

white shirt , green shorts & red shoes -- TOTALLY HOT.

hello people, i'm suddenly awaken. i guess i'm pretty sure where i want to go. but still, confusions, and there's this decision that i cant set my mind on yet. i feel like keeping this decision till the later time. now, there's this sentence that keeps repeating in my head.

"sheryl, it's time to study !"

yes, i'm quite motivated to study. what my plan now is, to get into a poly. quite shocking huh? cause i've always been saying about this juniorcollege, that juniorcollege and all. like ah ! how people how ? wait, read on. in poly, i'll be specialized in one course, maybe accounting blahblah? and after finishing my 3 years of poly life, i want to continue my university life in australia. and guess what, i'll get my 1st degree in 1year6mths ! like how wonderful. then i can work there for awhile, and continue with my masters degree. and settle down with my life. either there, or singapore. yeaps.

then again, i want to get into a juniorcollege, especially, the school which has a nice uniform & a nice tie - saint andrew's. it's my "life-long", or well, "sec4-life" 's goal to get into that school. i'm rather doubtful too, can i even get into that school ? seriously, thats a wrong mentality. okay, life continues, getting into a juniorcollege, then study hard and get into a singapore university.

well, YOU SEE ! there are two choices for me. it's like how ! i dont know which one would work best for me. maybe i shall just study hard now and wait till then, i'll decide ? i dont really want to stay in singapore to study for university, it's like so typical. i want foreign exposure ! haha. oh well.

it's study time. (:

coughing all day long, i believe that i can just cough my lungs out anytime. it's getting from bad to worst, my throat, it seemed as if i'm going to die anytime. i can barely speak (only at times when i'm choke), just like what happened during tutoring this morning, it was so irritating. it's like i cant stop coughing and the medicine i'm taking doesnt seems to help, maybe for a short-term, an hour or so, yes. but after that, it's back to some killer.

went to pay respects to some people who past away, like my dad's mom, my mom's grandmother as well as my grandfather. yups, it's the "sao mu" season of the year, i dno what is it called in english. yups. helped to burn those incense paper, and i swear, it's extremely hot. the ashes and all made my throat infection worst, yes, it totally sucked.

going to have dinner together with my relatives again. and yes, i miss my cousins. (: i've heard from people that they rarely see cousins who are so close, but, i do see what ! weird. hah. kkay. i'm stink from all those burning.

and yesterday night at about 1am, i had a conversation with jonas, which goes like this -


when i was talking to him, i was practically laughing lah, it's like, throw down? from the 10th floor? slowly run after it lah. hah. then coming to my house and get it, asking me to throw out of the window. how funny can he get. ya, so he came over and i opened my door and past it to him. hah. yups, thats all. (:

rah rah rah !

still, went for service, all because of ziwei. sat at a few rows back, and went off straight after service. met up with christine. our main motive - to study. but still, went around and had my lunch. ate at pepperlunch again, and i just realised that they've stop giving out the 10% off coupon thing. ): and here's my lunch -



my retarded face with my mouth filled,



plus, me enjoying my food. (: i'm totally in love with food.



okay, so then, we headed to cityhall to meet up with christine's seller. went back to town - cineleisure. tried studying at yoshinoya. and well, i realised that, everytime while i'm studying in town, it'll be at cine's yoshinoya. how weird. okok, we were studying, when christine started taking photos with my camera.





well, you CAN see, i'm pretty hardworking alright. and christine, tried to be hardworking too.



but you can see, her paper is BLANK alright.



typical christine, trying to be retarded as usual.





and well, i joined in, due to the excessive noise made by christine. she was bugging me the whole day asking if i'm done with the work, cause she wanted to go to the mini flea market by cine. so sick yes ! not until an hour, i'm off shopping ! RAH.



after so, i got my off-shoulders.



we went ahead to heeren, and went to the changing room in 77th street and took ONE photo.



*yes, thats what we're wearing for today

we then made our way to topshop and decided to try on some basic top and expensive skirt, and started cam-whoring in the changing room again, and i swear, we took an extremely long time.

















seriously, i find some of the faces slutty. oh well. and ya, i'm getting that basic spag top. i sort of like that colour. hah. alright !!! tutoring tomorrow. BAHHHS.

Thank You God, i guess my sister is feeling much better now. Thank You once again. (:

school as usual, had chinese formal letter writing test, wrote quite long, and seriously, i guess the problem i'm having with is on paper 2 and not on paper 1. yeaps. starting to love chinese, all thanks to ChenLaoDa.

went back home, then changed and went to meet up with jonas for lunch. there were so much to talk about that we sat there at the coffeeshop and chatted for about an hour or so. went up and get my money from him and caught the OC. it's rather nice, and the people are all pretty and bitchy. hah.

home, dinner at chinatown with family. the food was just alright. walked around and went home. watching "da chang jing". it's an extremely nice show. (: yay. how wonderful.

there's something that i'm feeling. i guess it's rather negative, i dont want to go for service. and well, i'm not going to tomorrow. ya. thats all.

Dear God,

my sister is sick and please heal her. she hit her head and she's feeling terrible, so please heal her and let her feel better and not let her feel sick anymore.

in Jesus's name i pray, Amen.

what the hell is wrong with you people.

like what, stop acting like insane people and all. hurt him, please lah, i NEVER even do anything, and whats up with the real thing going on, why dont you go ahead and ask him why did he started it all. so yah. shut up. if knowing for less than a week can end up someone being hurt, wow, it's a wonderful great job. yuck.

school, slacked. didnt attend english remedial and here i am at lalu's house. anyway, it's brandon's birthday today,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY birthday boy ! (:

yes, that all. whats happening now, is so totally sick.

what the hell is wrong with you. i seriously DONT understand, get out and shut up. started adding my friends and all, what in the world do you want. like, stop bothering my friends and all, and telling them this and that. just stop bothering my friends will you. gosh. this totally sucked.

went to meet up with jocelyn after school and passed her the history essay. then went to junction8 to have lunch and studied. saw quite a few people there, then jocelyn felt that we're eating too much, so we walked all the way from junction8 to school. daowei claimed he saw us, okay, thats not the point. was really tired.

took the bus to northpoint and went for tutoring. was having a bad headache and i guess the fever's coming back. bus-ed home.

michelle, happy birthday.

jocelyn told me this : CAB lovesssss CAL (ya, so stick to you CAL)

and to end this post, many people are hypocritical. that suck.

YES,

GET OUT.
&
SHUT UP

Hectic Life. i'm really on fire to study and for God. friends, we're gna help one another and really strive hard. didnt attend school today, partially was because i was extremely sleepy, and partially, it was because i was feeling a little sick in the morning. gna do some history essay stuff, then meet up with LYN.

we're gna study hard. yes ! THERE'S NO TIME TO WASTE !

bahs.

i'm going to make my whole life packed like nobody's business.

went to school as per normal. and haha. i did my english compo okay. so when mrs anand asked to pass up our compo, yay, i have ! (: how wonderful. it's a pleasent feeling okay. oh yes, i didnt sleep in class today.

had social studies debate, was the first speaker. seriously, i was extremely scared. yes, went to xishanprimary with the others for coaching. seriously, was rather fed up during the training, some* should know.

went for dinner with jocelyn at northpoint. talked and laughed. was hilarious ! hahaha. (: i love that girl. and we're going studying tomorrow afternoon at junction8. do drop by. DROP BY only. yes. hah.

ya, went for tutoring. SO SICK. SO BORING. bahs. then daddy came to fetch me.

history test tomorrow, gna be the stupid midnight girl burning the midnight oil. yes, STUPID ! bahs. RED BULL ! hahaha. =) not going for PE tomorrow. just recovered from fever. ta da ~ cya.

feeling much better now, though the medicine sucked. yeaps.

was slacking much during the entire day, eating, sleeping, slacking, tv !

and yes yes,

ADRIANO HUANG is EXTREMELY CUTE !

but...

he's so short. ): 164 cm only ! so sick. bahs.



ya ya, a picture taken in zouk.

sher&clar

was feeling real weird and well, deprived ! cause i havent been using the computure for like days ! =x ahhs.

was suppose to go for the school's band concert at the explanade. but didnt went cause i was SOOOOOO SICK. yes, i dont know why, but when i woke up that morning, i was having a serious headache, a throat infection and something's wrong with my stomach ! ahs.

yes, i even had trouble sitting straight up, felt like vomitting. tried to brush my teeth, but ended up fainting on the floor ! so funny lah ! but well, my mom said i was looking extremely pale. brought me to the doctor, saying that my blood pressure was a little down and i was having fever as well as throat infection. but whats was wrong with the stomach, the doctor said it might have to do with my fever and throat infection. yup.

was sleeping the whole entire day. waking up now and then to take my medicine.

and yes, i'm going to sleep now . two days of MC. (:

yesterday

woke up early, packed my stuffs and went to meet zhixin. had lunch, before meeting up with the rest of the company. made our way to lalu's house and the 7 of us got ready for zouk. hah. was extremely funny, all of us were running in and out and helping out with one another.

then jingsheng came, after that, we split into two groups and cabbed to greatworldcity. had dinner and made our way to zouk. saw quite some people i know there. clar, pam, darryl, jonas, zhihao, wilson and yanling. oh, xueting's sister, xueyan too. hah.

the whole place was packed with people. all of us were crazily dancing. lalu&xueting. the most hiong people of all. jocelyn, my dancing partner ! us, surrounded by people. haha. there were some guys there who were like well, GROSS ? hah. ya. but still, quite fun.

oh ya, the other 5 - excluding lalu&i. ALL SO CRAZY OVER SHAWN LEE (but real cute up close in person, and nice too *from what i heard from the others). lalu and i, dont care ! just dance together, not even bothering about shawn, then the rest. HAIII.

jocelyn, 18 years old ! haha. madness. (: it's just a fling !

went lalu's house to bathe and all, but didnt really sleep well. left her house and went to zhixin's house to sleep ! omg. SUPER SUPER NICE. slept all the way until 1plus 2. =) love it. haha.

thats all ! what a night. (:

pictures :


jocelyn&i - hair ! hah.


xueting , jiahui , zhixin , me


lalu&i


we were trying to act something but failed.


i totally love them. the BEST of them.


the girls - without lalu & karlok.


AGAIN ! (:


i love this photo. i love jocelyn ! hah.

edited !

yesterday

met up with clarence to shop in town for a little while. after a long hunt, i finally got myself 3 stuffs, and i got all of them at fareastplaza. (:

first, i got my heels. or well, close to flats already.



second, i got my shades then a necklace. =)


'(extremely cheapo shades) hah.


then, went to meet david at bishan. went to coffee bean, tried their cheesecake&mudpie, together with a vallina ice-blended. pretty lovely. (: studied a little, talked a while, then we went to the supermarket, where we saw MRS LAI. =xx ya.
bought meesua to yoshinoya, cause david wanted to eat there. =x alright. it's wrong.

okay, then david took a picture of me with his polaroid camera. i think i looked rather retarded.



hah. thats all ! going to meet them* soon. (:


alrighty, i've remember something. my results ! =x
i've gave my mom my results slip, though i think i did extremely lousy, and expecting my mom to scold me when she saw that result. but ! she didnt. hah ! thank God. cause i did IMPROVED. =) here it is.

english - D7
chinese - B4
A.maths - A1
E.maths - A1
Biology - B3
Physics - B4
C.H - C6

okay, well you see, my physics. from like D7 rto B4 !!! wees. =) and another, C.H, still as lousy, but at least i passed. but ! you dont knw sth, this time, the first time in my whole entire life, my history helped me pass my C.H ! how wonderful lah !! =DDDD alright. thats all . bye ! =)

practically doing nothing for the whole day, sleeping , using computer. so no life ! =x alright, went for tutoring at 2plus. did differentiation, seriously, KILLER. bahs. then went back, saw ziwei at the entrance of northpoint, so the both of us went back together. had dinner, saw msyap. she said she wasnt able to recognise me, i change alot ?!? no what.

going to town tomorrow. to shop for some clothes, heels and my pair of shades.
and the STUDY. i play and study alright !

talking to lalu now, she's extremely excited. funny !!

was at my old blog earlier this afternoon, read through some posts, and realised, yes, there were many problems though, but happy moments too. some things of what people said or well "predicted" were true. i thought i could show them that what they've said were wrong, but then, i was the one wrong instead. i should have just told them, yes, you're right. cause it happened the way they said it would. well, i was wrong. but still, you were so nice&sweet , and well, childlike - to me, and seriously it was pretty lovely then.

omg. MY MOTHER IS FREAKING !@@$#^%*^*^(@@#!@

HELLO HAH !

morning, woke up at like 7.30am and got ready for coaching which was taking place at 8am at xishan primary. was a little late though. was the last day training them, was a little sad cause there are like still many things we yet to tell him to do. like their footwork and all. ah ! oh well..

went home to rest and bathe. then made myself pretty and went out to meet zhixin. but before that, both of us accompanied my sister for lunch, she's so sweet, gave me 30bucks.

was talking to lester on msn.

me : i feel pretty today !
lester : shld feel pretty everyday!
me : hah. no, i feel EXCEPTIONALLY PRETTY today.

yes, i feel pretty today. (i know it's sick, but thats my POV)

okay, kept walking to and fro between taka and wisma with zhixin. and what, we just did WINDOW SHOPPING. didnt get anything we wanted. bahs. but i enjoyed myself though, cause i just i got to know zhixin a little much better, such that she doesnt take carrots. hah. really, thank God for her.

went for dinner at "pepperlunch" at taka. the food was so nice. i actually planned to take a photo of it before i start, but then, i forgot ! and i was half way through it when i took this :



this is like SO WONDERFUL okay. though a little ex, but still, go try it. it's at taka, beside mos burger. it's called pepperlunch.

okay, i've found the shades i want. zhixin found hers too. and yes, there's a picture zhixin took.



hah !! i want that that and that ! yes. that. =)
i'm just getting it for fun and well, ACT PRETTY too.

yes, and a last picture we took before i alighted at my bus stop.



i look very old meh ! zhixin named it as
"laoahma & her granddaughter(zhixin) =p"

and yes, was exploring my folders when i came across some random photos.



the TALLEST girl and the TALLEST boy in class SO FAR.



the ONLY picture junrui looks better. zhixin says he looks CUTE in this photo which is like so untrue in real life. hah. and me, in specs. hahs.





me and my cousins, during our family dinner few weeks ago.


yes, thats all for today. tag people tag. =D

hello ! was frustrated this morning, till now, i have sleep till it's at least 9am.

saturday

woke up at like 6.15am cause i have to reach school by 7.15am to set up the stalls for fun fiesta. fun fiesta was fun. and yes, was busy too. had fun, cause i had to help out at the netball stall for extra time cause it was extremely busy, i left school at 12.15pm for service. cabbed my way down, wearing the fbt short plus the over-sized fun fiesta shirt. was like so funny.

after that, went xbox-ing for about an hour with some people from caregroup. had fun with faith, then went back home.


sunday (today)

woke up like so early ! 7.30 am. cause i was having tutoring this morning ! tiring. went home and left to meet up with zhixin to STUDY. hah. we're pretty hardworking now. =) went to northpoint bk to study. guess we'll be going there to study more often now. yahs.

took neoprints. posting at the end of this post. went back and sat down to chat. talked for an hour or so i believe, we talked about everything under the orange sun. the past and the present. yeaps.

dinner with parents. WONDERFUL.


tomorrow

having coaching. gna wake up early again. sad. ):


hms. i was reading through some messages i've kept in my phone during tutoring. and yes, i do keep messages, encouraging messages, funny messages and well, some messages which reminds me of some stuffs. these messages means alot to me it's there to either cheer me up while i'm feeling rather down or remind me of stuffs when i'm losing it. yes, so if i were to lost my phone or the messages were to disappear, i might die. hah. yeaps. so yes, some messages sent by people might not mean a thing to the person, but yes, they do mean to me. (:

dont ask me why i'm blogging about the messages, but i just want to be assure that there's something to keep me awake and remind me while i'm losing it at times. and who knows, maybe 10 years down the road as i read through my past entries, i'll be reminded.

yes, that all. neoprints.


told ya, we studied. PHYSICS alright.


this sucked. but still, i post it.


look at that face of ours. like bahs.


say HEY.


the pussies cat DOLLs.


i like this, it's wonderful yes ???


zhixin loves this. she thinks it's cute!
retainer&braces. hah.


future TAITAI wannabee.
(i dont know why zhixin says that)


the BABES. xin&sher.

LAST OF ALL.



it's hot and it's SEXY. lol ! guess that.

thats all.


thankyoufaith.

SHERYL CHUA :)
21nov90
MI
hopechurch
x_sheryl16@hotmail.com
i love my boyfriend:)